For context: I’m a young adult, I don’t think I have any serious brain issues yet.
But I’ve recently been just trying to remember the past and although its kinda tragic, there are very interesting moments and I want to keep these memories forever.
But brains aren’t perfect, and I’m just so scared.
Even re-reading the events from a journal woudn’t exactly be the same as remembering it.
Idk, I’m kinda just obsessed with some memories for some reason. Don’t wanna let go of it. Having this “backstory” (for lack of a better term), is what drives me forward, without those memories, like if I get a concussion and forgot everything, I wouldn’t really be… well… “me” anymore, and the thought of that is terrifying.
This makes it even more terrifying. If I had uncurable dementia I’d probably just commit suicide. Much better than rotting away forgetting all my loved ones, and eventually forgetting who I am.
Maybe a geriatrician can chime in, but I’m not so sure people with late stage dementia even know they have dementia. Not arguing that it’s scary from the outside though. Even in their 40s, some people start becoming aware they’re forgetting stuff, or at least not having the data available at hand. E.g. takes more time to find words that used to be second nature.